Year-end Summary - 2022

2022 is coming to an end. At first, I planned to write a semester summary, but after some thought, I decided to write a year-end summary to summarize this year.


There has been a significant change in my mindset this year. In the first half of the year, I was in a state of self-abandonment, but in the second half, I regained hope and started to change myself. However, I don't want to dwell on the past. Once I pass a certain point, I will leave everything behind. I originally wanted to at least write about the key that prompted me to change, but upon further reflection, it seems that the motivation to pick up that key has long existed in my thoughts and is not traceable. After experiencing some dark moments, I am fortunate to have climbed out of the abyss. I am now more open-minded and willing to accept new things. I remember when I first started college, I was afraid of difficulties and unfamiliar things. Whenever I encountered difficulties, I had an impulse to escape. When I feel that I am facing difficulties at every step, it is time for me to change.


In the first half of the year, I avoided difficulties, but in the second half, I faced them head-on. Although I haven't done everything perfectly and there is still a lot of room for improvement, I believe that I am getting better. The theme for next year should be the postgraduate entrance examination. I hope to lay a solid foundation in my subjects during this year and continuously improve my bad habits. I need to be more focused, put more thought into it, and be fully committed.


In the second half of the semester, I became bolder in interacting with people. I took the initiative to approach and communicate with others. As I interacted with more and more people, I felt that I was becoming more mature mentally and handling interpersonal relationships more appropriately. When interacting with others, I also reflect on what I did wrong. Sometimes I may be too enthusiastic, sometimes too indifferent, and sometimes I may not manage my emotions well. When I think about it, I feel grateful that everyone is so tolerant, and I will continue to improve. I have also become more thick-skinned. I write emails to authors to inquire about their code, ask about graduate admissions, and inquire about the situation in the laboratory from senior students, etc. Putting myself in their shoes, I think as long as I remain sincere and polite, express gratitude, and ask for advice openly, it should be fine. If I am rejected, there is no need to be discouraged because not everyone is obligated to answer your questions. After expressing gratitude, I will think of other ways.


No progress yet, but I feel that compared to a year ago, I have become more mature and rational. I continue to grow, and the people I meet will eventually meet.


This year, I tried things that I was interested in and became a participant (Stable Diffusion, ChatGPT, Linux) rather than just an observer. I experienced the true feelings when facing these things. Overall, playing these things made me happy. After extensive exploration, the next step is to focus my time and energy on one point. Focused and determined. I am more understanding, understanding, and loving towards my family. I am grateful that my family can selflessly love me even in my worst times, and I will not let them down. The external environment has experienced many incredible things this year. I don't know what to say anymore. I just tell myself not to forget and focus on what I am doing so that I can change my situation and take care of my family.


I read about 20 books this year, about half of what I read last year. I mainly read during the winter and summer vacations. In the first half of the year, I read most of Zhang Weiying's "Principles of Economics" before the midterm, and then after the midterm exams, I read Linus's autobiography "Just for Fun". I have read almost all of Haruki Murakami's books except for travelogues, and I reread all of Wang Xiaobo's books (I started reading them last year and finished them this year). I have read many blogs, and the most noteworthy one is Huo Ji's blog, from which I have learned a lot.


This year, I wrote a short story and published it on my public account. I shared it on my Moments for the first time. In October, I wrote another one but couldn't finish it, and then there is this year-end summary. I hope to do more deep thinking and produce more content in the future, but it is not mandatory because the focus should indeed be elsewhere.


I want to mention Cyberpunk as well. During the summer vacation, I came across a game called "Stray" where the protagonist is a cat. I found it interesting and bought it to play. I played it in one go from morning till afternoon, spending eight hours to complete it. After playing the game, what interested me the most was not the cat element, but the game's cyberpunk world. To some extent, I feel that what is happening in the cyberpunk world is happening now. This attracted me. Then I traced back and watched Scarlett Johansson's "Ghost in the Shell" and the anime. I finished watching "Cyberpunk: Edgerunners" in two days, and so on. Next, I plan to read classic cyberpunk novels like "Neuromancer".


Through documentaries, I got to know two great people. In the first half of the year, I learned about Aaron Swartz through Huo Ji's blog. One day, I watched his documentary "The Internet's Own Boy" and was fascinated by him. He was a person with lofty ideals. "He is the Internet's own boy, and the old world killed him." Another person is Eliud Kipchoge. He is very inspirational. During the midterm exams, I watched the same video clip about him every day to motivate myself. Every marathon is like climbing a tree, grabbing one branch at a time to experience something unprecedented and constantly surpassing oneself. Because I have average talent, I believe that enduring pain is the only way to achieve success. Life is a marathon in every sense.


In the second half of the year, I participated as a volunteer in the offline 2022 Open Source Annual Conference organized by the Open Source Society. I had a great time and made friends. But the biggest gain was the experience of coordinating time. The Open Source Annual Conference was held the day before the midterm exam for Electromagnetic Fields and Electromagnetic Waves. If it were before, I would not have participated, but I didn't give up. I seized the time to review Electromagnetic Fields, and I did well in the midterm exam. The biggest mistake I made during the event was when I, as a volunteer, coordinated with a participant who was probably in his forties. When he saw me, he reached out to shake hands, and I was a little surprised. I didn't shake his hand and started talking about the event. He paused his hand and withdrew it himself... I think this was the most impolite thing I did, and there won't be another time 😿. I can't give up. I have to participate and experience.


In any case, 2022 has come to an end, and 2023 is about to begin. I firmly believe that I will continue to improve. I will always be kind and constantly recognize my shortcomings and improve myself. So I hope that in the next year, I can make further progress in professional knowledge and grow faster in terms of mentality. The theme for the next year should be the postgraduate entrance examination. I hope that on December 31, 2023, when I am writing my year-end summary, I can breathe a sigh of relief and be satisfied. Commentator He Wei said after Messi won the World Cup, "Any destiny, no matter how complex and long, actually reflects in a moment: the moment when people truly realize who they are." I want to experience this moment through my experiences.

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